emo night

I am not sure if I can continue to live like this. Eh, don't get me wrong. I don't have the guts to kill myself. Life still have a lot of things to live through. I can't bear to leave behind the fun online games, my friends and all the potential girls in this world. It's just that I am very quiet in real life due to my deafness. This is what my childhood made me I guess, for that I find myself very unique from the others.

Mainly because I like to make nice friends, that I become paranoid about what they say or think about me. I get very negative if they are thinking about negative things of me. Yeah, I fear they don't like me at all. But I do get by somehow.

I could just live a life of solitude or loneliness, I can live with it as long I got my guy friends. And my games.

Mm, I need to blog about my events in life more. And more positively too. Need more things to happen to me! Meh, I wanted to cut my hair today, but mum drove me out quite late which was around 9pm. By then, most barbers are closed. :/ Bummer.

Oh well, I need to stop this beating heart. It throbs quite hard.